truth is, I'm lazy
My last couple of posts have been talking about how I'm not really a fan of social media and how I've fallen out of love with my career. Not really the most positive of topics to be talking about, but one's I've felt needed to be out in the world so that I can clear my mind from thinking about them.
The next one to be purged from my mind? My laziness.
Now, this is a bit of an odd topic for me to talk about, because at work, I'm not lazy at all (or at least, I don't believe I am), but when it comes to my own personal 'work' or wanting to learn new things, I'm dreadfully lazy.
I have these grand ideas of being an artist, then an environment illustrator, a 3D illustrator, a musician, a writer, a poet... The list goes on and then I think about the amount of time and effort that I will need to put into them and I get completely unmotivated and don't even attempt it.
See, not only do I suffer with this laziness, but I also suffer from perfectionism.
If something isn't perfect after my first couple of attempts, I'm struggling to continue, which is ridiculous in itself when you start thinking about it, but that's just who I am.
I have no doubt that when I'm finally ready to pursue something, I'll get over the perfection trap and push through the laziness.
Until then, I'm accepting I'm going to be lazy and getting on with it.